Deep-seated and/or long-term animosity or ill will about something or someone, especially due to a past misdeed or mistreatment.
to have/hold/bear a grudge against someone
To be unwilling to give or allow (someone something).
To grumble, complain; to be dissatisfied.
To hold or harbour with malicious disposition or purpose; to cherish enviously.
To feel compunction or grief.